More bits and pieces

"If it's love
And we decide that it's forever
No one else could do it better

If it's love
And we're two birds of a feather
Then the rest is just whenever"
- If it's love- Train
[I thought I would keep it upside down, the way it was originally taken, captured in posterity forever upside down.]

I'm feeling remarkably upbeat lately, I don't know why but the future seems really bright. Of course I'm not Pollyanna and I have bad/mopey/fat moments but I feel like I've wasted so much time that there's no point not looking forward. So I've been busy like a nut recently and not doing much blogging, writing or any analysing at all [which I figure would explain why my dreams have turned into these insane Dali Lynch paintings].

I had my first manual driving lesson the other day! I don't think I'm very great but I can drive round and round in circles on 1st and 2nd gear, and as I was concentrating very hard [clutch, accelerate, clutch, brake ] Mountain Guy turns to me and says "I really envy your life".

This was probably not the right thing to say to me as I was careening down a one way strip down a mountain. "What?"

"You have a great life. You live in a nice suburb, you have flexibility to move in your job, everything is good." He looks at me. "In three years, I'll work towards it and I will have a lifestyle like yours."

I didn't know what to say, I just shook my head.

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I do have a nice life. I have family and friends who I love and [mostly] love me back. I don't have much responsibility to anyone or anything. I can eat gummi bears for dinner and I can turn the music up as loud as I want. I don't have much money, but I get to eat out when I choose to. I do live in a millionaires suburb, but if you're ok to live in a 5x5 studio then you can too.

I like my life, but I don't think it's anything particularly different from the way that any other young professional lives. I really puzzle about the way I come off to people that I don't really know very well.

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So as well as the manual driving thing, I'm also going to a Grease dancing workshop [oh Sandy!] and apparently a soccer skills course with Coconat.

I mentioned the soccer skills course to Alv

Alv: What? Why? wtf.
Mush: I'm on a self improvement kick!
Alv: What the heck is it with girls and self-improvement?
Mush:.. what do you mean..?
Alv: You know that someone [ie. a guy] should like you just the way you are.
Mush: I'm not doing it for a guy?! I'm doing it for me
[Good thing, this was over skype otherwise I would have walloped him with my handbag. Way to go to ruffle my feminist feathers in a single swoop]

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Last Sunday I was standing at the ATM when I bumped into Alphabeta, I still don't know how I feel about it. I'll write a post about it when I figure out what these weird emotions are.

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I'm watching the soccer as I type this [Argentina vs South Korea]. It's really strange to see that the sun is shining on the other side of the world.